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December 17, 2006
Too Cute For Comfort
I guess although part of me knows I'm cute, there's another part that says I'm nothing special. Last night I kind of felt the two feeling at once.
I went out last night on my second patrol and when it was over I stopped for a few drinks. I got a lot of flirtatious looks which made me feel good but no one would approach me and actually have a conversation.
I also realized when I'm out by myself, a feeling of being inadequit in comparison to other people. Strangers so to speak.
After deciding to go to the Edge, I went over there without any expectations. I never thought of myself as unapproachable but am beginning to wonder what might send that signal to others.
I sat there in silence with more looking, flirting, and smiling. It wasn't until 2 guys on there way out stopped by and actually said hello before they left.
They told me how they all had been checking me out and none of them wanted to come talk to me. They decided on their way out they would at least say hi. It was then that I realized there is an intimidation with being cute. In many ways a curse.
Elizabeth and I have been reading The Devil Wears Prada and all I can hear in my head is "A million girls would kill to have your job". Its the same premise.
As for Elizabeth, whom I absolutely adore working with, she apparently talks highly of me. To her mom.
Her mom had put together a gift bag for me, gave it to Elizabeth, and made her put her name on it. I've only worked with her 2 months but apparently made a great impressipn on her and her mom (now known as mama Jean).
As for the rest of life, its been pretty hectic with lots of commitments and plans. I'm happy to be busy but I do need a rest. I'm really anxious for April and possibly heading home to visit. I'm really missing everyone back east.
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After I typed the last part from brunch at Crepevine via my treo, I had two cute guys calling me from the window of their car. I assumed I knew them but after shielding my eyes from the blinding sun and removing the ear buds from my ears, I realized I didn't. I assumed they were flirting but the only part I caught was "dont you remember us?" in a joking way which was a funny way of saying simply "hi".
chuckle......ok its fun being cute and I love cat calls.
Posted by Des at December 17, 2006 02:03 PM
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